Staggering

ONE OUT OF EVERY SIX American women has been the victim of an attempted or a completed rape in her lifetime, adding up to 17.7 million people.

Sixty-six perfect of rape victims know their assailant. Forty-eight percent are raped by a friend.

Twenty perfect of rapes take place at the home of a friend, neighbor, or relative.

More than half occur within a mile of the victim's home.

Eighty percent of rape victims are under age thirty. Girls between ages sixteen and nineteen are four times more likely than the general population to be victims of sexual assault.

Sixty-one percent of rapes are not reported to the police. If a rape is reported, there's a 50.8 percent chance that an arrest will be made. If an arrest is made, there's an 80 percent chance of prosecution. If there's a prosecution, there's a 58 percent chance of felony conviction. If there's a felony conviction, there's a 69 percent chance that the rapist will actually spend time in jail. Of the 39 percent of rapes that are ported to the police, then there's only a 16.3 percent chance that the rapist will wind up in prison. If you factor in all the unreported rapes, 94 percent of rapists walk free.

Quotes from Theatre Appreciation

By concentrating on the bigger picture rather than your individual role, you get farther and farther away from your role, harming the bigger picture.

Passion is what makes goals achievable.

Until June

Meggar posted something on Michael Buble so I feel like posting something on Until June. :)

"Until June is quietly conquering the music world... The indie-cool-meets-pop sounds created by trio Josh Ballard, Dan Ballard and Daniel Dempsey offer a fresh take on the term piano rock. With a #1 single in Greece and extensive touring in the U.S., Southeast Asia and the Mediterranean under their belts, UJ is steadily amassing a loyal alliance of believers worldwide who are eager to share their discovery. Melodic falsettos belted out over lush rock instrumentation provide the perfect paradox of sound that almost feels like a guilty pleasure.

Until June released their new EP Sound of Defeat on Authentik Artists on May 19, 2009 and will be touring internationally throughout the year."

- PureVolume

The Game of Life

Today in Theatre, our teacher had us do a 'check-in' where we were to use a board game as a metaphor for our lives right now.

I used the game Clue. I have watched about three Sherlock Holmes movies in the past three days, and I have started reading Conan Doyle again.

But the real reason I used Clue was because I am waiting on information in order to make decisions in my life.

Oratio Sancti Francisci

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

Amen.


Domine, fac me servum pacis tuae,
ubi odium, amorem seram;
ubi iniuria, veniam;
ubi dubium, fidem;
ubi desperatio, spem;
ubi caligo, lucem;
ubi tristitia, laetitiam.

O Domine coelestis, concede mihi ut ne tam petam
consolari quam consolare,
intellegi quam intelligere,
amari quam amare.

Nam in dando recipimus,
in ignoscendo ignoscimur,
et in moriendo ad vitam aeternam nascimur.

Amen.

Plain Truth

"If you're afraid of everyone leaving you, what do you do?"

"Make them stay."

"And if you can't do that, or don't know how to?"

"I don't know."

"Yes, you do. In fact, you've done it. You leave first, so you don't have to watch them walk away."


-Coop and Ellie from "Plain Truth" by Jodi Piccoult

Gifts

Imagine making a gift for someone and pouring your blood, sweat, tears, time, your very self into this gift. It becomes a representation of you. You give this gift to the person you made it for, and they take the gift and walk away, without so much as a thank you. They are so enthralled with the gift that they forget the giver.

God gives people to us, friends and family. They greatest gifts receive in our lives. Sometimes we come to love them and forget their Maker, we appreciate them without appreciating Him Who gave them to us. And sometimes, God takes them away from us, because He loves us so much, so that we will remember Him.

- A homily by Fr. Anthony Ouellette

Movie Review: Benny & Joon

Title: Benny & Joon

Rating: PG

Length: 98 minutes

Stars: Johnny Depp, Mary Stuart Masterson

My Rating: 5 stars *****

Basically, this movie is awesome. I LOVE Johnny Depp, and he is simply amazing in “Benny & Joon”. He makes you laugh, and he makes you cry. You want him to succeed and you fall in love with him.

Joon is a mentally ill young woman who lives with her brother, Benny. She has to be watched by a house sitter and rarely leaves the house. She loves to paint. She goes with Benny to a poker game and she loses, and therefore must take a young man named Sam home with her. Joon and Sam form a friendship, originally to the wonder of Benny, and then to his dismay.

That’s the plot setup. I’m sure you can guess what happens next. The acting, especially on the part of Mary Stuart Masterson, is very good, and the plot is priceless.

Aaaand, this is a sucky review but I honestly can’t think of anything else to say about it except that it’s amazing and you should watch it.

Movie Review: Master and Commander

Title: Master and Commander: The Far Side of the World

Rating: PG-13

Length: 138 minutes

Stars: Russell Crowe, Paul Bettany

My Rating: 4 stars ****

Recommended by: The Odd Wizard of MO

The story centered around a British naval captain, Captain Jack Aubrey, and his ship, the HSM Surprise. The movie is set in the very early 1800s in the oceans around South America (maybe Africa). The ship suffers from a surprise attack by a French ship. Captain Aubrey decides to chase this ship down and capture it, despite the ship being bigger and faster, and consequently ‘out of their league’.

This movie is not for the faint of heart. I certainly don’t enjoy violence, but in this movie it is simply a part of the story and was not overly emphasized, so I could live with it.

At the same time, humor also has its place in the movie and is well-used. An example: “Name a shrub after me. Something prickly and hard to eradicate.”

As for the characters, they are realistic and believable. You grow attached to them quickly, and, as a warning, not all of them survive. It’s a battleship. There are battles. Men die. That’s just the facts. Even some of the guys you care about will die.

The captain, Jack Aubrey, is a powerful character. You come to care about him, but you also realize he is not perfect and can make bad decisions. In the end he redeems himself, as all truly good characters do. His friend, Stephen, was a difficult character for me. I liked him, but I don’t think I would want to be friends with him. Maybe part of what bothered me about him was that I recognized the actor but couldn’t place him. Turns out he (Paul Betanny) played Dustfinger in “Inkheart.” The friendship between Jack and Stephen is explored in relation to their different levels of authority, which adds an interesting element.

Sadly, there are no absolutely no women or girls “Master and Commander”. :( I just felt the need to mention this and bemoan it.

Rusell Crowe was...okay, okay, I'll say it. Hot. Even with long(ish) hair. Happy now? He had a confidence and command that 'proved' his character. Don't ask me what that means :P

Overall, it was a good movie. Not absolutely spectacular, but it earned four stars.

Song of the Week

I have a brand new song of the week all ready and waiting!!!!!

"Smother Me" by The Used

However, "Congratulations" by Blue October feat. Imogen Heap also deserves a special mention, so I'm including a video for it too.

Listen to "Smother Me":
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I-AVDMKDYqI


Listen to "Congratulations":
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MknhYSj_w-I



<3 Kristen

Song of the Week

The song of the week is for Megs. She knows why. :)

“The Greatest Man That Ever Lived” by Weezer.

I saw this in a video and it was SO funny. I couldn’t get the song out of my head, so I downloaded it and became obsessed.

At first it might be a little wierd, but just listen to the whole thing. Trust me.

Listen to it:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wIbnlvjF5PY

http://butterfli4life.livejournal.com/9100.html

A Memory

I feel like a memory
Like a whispered ‘I love you’ the wind whisks away before it reaches the beloved

I feel like a footstep on snow
Like the feeble flicker of a candle that never gleams in someone’s eye

I feel like sleep
Like the hushed sob of a broken heart begging amnesia for balm

I feel like silence
Like the last leaf of autumn twirling and dangling by a thread

I feel like thunder
Like the final throb of hope as it exhales into despair

I feel like a goodbye
Like the soft thud of a book closing to the world

I feel like a sigh
Like moss encroaching the honor and eternity of a tombstone

I feel like a shadow
Like the cry of a seagull echoing out across the waves

I feel like a requiem
Like the muslin of a mourning veil that filters the light until only shadows penetrate the
gloom

I live.

I hurt.

I am.

New Song of the Week

This week I am actually on time with the song of the week - "Red High Heels" by Kellie Pickler. Lately I've been listening to so much pop, rock, and alternative, I haven't really listened to country music in a while. That is, until this song popped up in my YouTube suggestions box, and I have a slight addiction to it now. Plus, I'm in a very red-high-heels mood right now. If you're a guy and don't understand, I'm sorry, I can't explain it. It's a girl thing.

Listen to it:

Lyrics:

Baby, I've got plans tonight
You don't know nothin about
I've been sittin round way too long
Tryin' to figure you out
But you say that you'll call and you don't
And I'm spinnin my wheels
So I'm goin out tonight in my red high heels

I'm gonna call up that old boyfriend you said
Still has it bad for me
I'm gonna take him into town, flaunt him around
For everyone to see
Well, you said once yourself, baby
Yeah, you know the deal
Nobody holds a candle to me
In my red high heels

Oh, you can watch me walk if you want to, want to
I bet you want me back now don't you, don't you
I'm about to show you just how missin me feels
In my red high heels

All those games you tried to play
Well they ain't gonna work on me now
I put a barbed wire fence around my heart, baby
Just to keep you out
Well, you thought I'd wait around forever
But baby get real
I just kicked you to the curb
In my red high heels

Oh, you can watch me walk if you want to, want to
I bet you want me back now don't you, don't you
I'm about to show you just how missin me feels
In my red high heels

Oh, you can watch me walk if you want to, want to
I bet you want me back now don't you, don't you
I'm about to show you just how missin me feels

Oh, you can watch me walk if you want to, want to
I bet you want me back now don't you, don't you
I'm about to show you just how missin' me feels
In my red high heels
In my red high heels
In my red high heels

~Kristen

http://butterfli4life.livejournal.com/8473.html

Michael Buble Raps

I found this today and it is amazing!!!!!!!!!!! Who knew Michael Buble, one of my all-time favorite singers, could rap?! And he even does it well!!!!!!!!!

Go Michael! I love you! :) <3

New Song of the Week

Drumroll, please! The new song of the week is……………..”Running Away” by Midnight Hour. I love this song to death. I first saw it in a New Moon video, and I fell for it then. I immediately went and downloaded it. It is so so heart-breakingly gut-wrenchingly sad. It has this epic sound to it. I don’t know how to describe it other than that. The lead singer’s voice is very powerful and emotional.

Listen to it:

Lyrics:

Don’t lie and say it’s okay

It’s alright if there’s nothing more to say

So I’ll be running away

I’m leaving this place

Yeah, I’m running away

I’m running away

Don’t tell me I’m the one to blame

It’s too late for you to make me stay

No, I won’t stay

So I’ll be running away

I’m leaving this place

Yeah, I’m running away

I’m running away

And faster than you can follow me

From this lonely place

And farther than you can find me

I’m leaving, yeah, I’m leaving today

I, I’ll never let you find me

I’m leaving you behind with the past

No, I won’t look back

And I, I don’t wanna hear your reasons

Don’t wanna hear you tell me why I should stay

I’m tryin’, I’m trying to understand me

Try to understand I say when I say I can’t stay

I, I’m moving on from this place

I’m leaving and I walk when I’m running away

I’m running away

I’m leaving this place

Yeah, I’m running away

I’m running away

BTW, if anyone wants to know what last week’s song was, it’s “The Greatest” by Cat Power.

Song of the Week

I have a new song of the week for y'all!!!!!!!!!

Last week sometime I was going through the Music Sundays blog, listening to the songs via YouTube videos that Moon_Witche so kindly included, and one of the songs was "The Minnow and the Trout" by A Fine Frenzy. I had heard of this group because I had a song of theirs ("Rangers") that came with a fanmix that I liked. Soooo, I listen to this song, and I LOVE it. It sticks in my head, I catch myself singing it randomly and constantly, and it just won't LEAVE ME ALONE!

So I decide that if I like two songs by Fine Frenzy, I will probably like their other ones. BOY DID I. Oh. My. Edward. I haven't loved a group this much since I found The Fray. And that's saying a lot. I could go on and on about the folk-music sound and the soulful lyrics and the heart-wrenching delivery of each and every song.

One song (barely) stood out from among the rest: "Almost Lover". This song . . . . . . . . . . . . . floors me. Alison Sudol sings this song especially with such beauty and TRUTH. She has surely suffered heartbreak in her life. There is no other way she could come out with a song like this. "Ashes and Wine" is a song that goes very closely with "Almost Lover". The lyrics are different, the concept is similar, but the feeling is identical. Now, I don't mean to say they're the same song. They're not. They're very different and stand alone fine. But together . . . . . . . . magic. Personally, I like the verses of "Almost Lover" and the chorus of "Ashes and Wine" best. I bow to the amazing awesomness of Alison Sudol. I really do. I would be honored to have her autograph. The warmth, depth, and power of her voice is truly one of the most spectacular things I have ever heard.

ANYWAYS, all the songs on "One Cell in the Sea" (the only album by A Fine Frenzy that has been released) are very very good and simply dazzling. Yes, I used the 'dazzling'. I bought the album the day after I listened to the songs and spent $13.95 at Hastings on it. The best almost $14 I have ever spent.

GO CHECK OUT 'A FINE FRENZY' RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Lyrics:

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

No

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Song of the Week

The new song of the week is . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

"Slow Dancing in a Burning Room" by John Mayer. I'm not a huge huge fan of John Mayer (I could have lived very happily without ever hearing "Say"), but this song of his I absolutely love. It is entirely coincidence that this song was played on CSI in Season 7. It was where I first heard the song, but I didn't really hear it until I downloaded it in a Twilight fanmix. One of the items on my bucket list is to slow dance to this song sometime in my life.

This song kind of reminds me of early on in New Moon from Edward's POV. He has the mindset where it's never going to work and it's going to end badly, so this song is very appropriate for that. The song is also very melancholy and almost resolved to the situation, which DUH, is totally Edward.

Plus, this song has just been my mood lately.



I used a GSR video to the song because I couldn't find any vids of the song that weren't live. So, if you want, just ignore the visuals and the voiceovers.

Anyways, love the song to death, strongly recommend it, and all that.

Lyrics:


It's not a silly little moment,
It's not the storm before the calm.
This is the deep and dying breath of
This love that we've been working on.

Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms.
Nobody's gonna come and save you,
We pulled too many false alarms.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

I was the one you always dreamed of,
You were the one I tried to draw.
How dare you say it's nothing to me?
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw.

I'll make the most of all the sadness,
You'll be a bitch because you can.
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

Go cry about it - why don't you?
Go cry about it - why don't you?
Go cry about it - why don't you?

My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room.

Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?

CSI MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.seattlepi.com/tvguide/405343_tvgif21.html

CSI fans take heart: A feature-length movie is in the cards, and it's definitely going to involve Gil Grissom, according to William Petersen.
"Yes, there will be a movie," Petersen told Britain's Radio Times. Although he is sure fans might be "a little trepidatious," Petersen promises the move to the big screen will not be done haphazardly.
"Usually people leave it till a series has finished —they did that with The X-Files and Sex and the City," Petersen said. "But it's about finding the right story, there has got to be a real reason to do it."
One of those real reasons? Grissom won't be around forever. "You don't just do it because you want to make money — you do it because there's a story that can't be told on TV and needs to be told from CSI's perspective and the audience wants it," Petersen said. "And we can't wait for CSI to end or Grissom will be about 90."
Petersen bowed out of the hit CBS drama after eight years earlier this season, handing over the reins to Laurence Fishburne's Raymond Langston. He had previously said his character's open-ended departure preserved the chance of a film.

Yes. YES. YES.

My life is complete. I can die now. No wait, I can die AFTER the movie comes out.

*happy sigh*

Billy, I love you. I do. Seriously.

Song of the Week

Hey everyone!

The song of the week is Only Hope” by Mandy Moore. There also is a Switchfoot version, but I prefer the original. I don’t LOVE love Mandy Moore, but I do really like this song. It’s from A Walk to Remember, which is where I first heard it. BTW Walk to Remember = GREAT movie!!! 4 stars (****). Lyrics at the bottom.

Also, I’ve known about this song called “Rangers” by A Fine Frenzy for a while, and it’s good, so I thought I’d share. Megan, I think you especially will like this song. It just sounds like your thing. ; )

Lyrics:

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Have a great day!

~Kristen

LJ Pimping

This is a very special post just to pimp the website LiveJournal. Yes, I love Blogger, it’s very simple and easy to use, but LJ . . . . it’s like vampire Blogger on steroids. The possibilities in using it are AMAZING. It’s so easy to post pics and videos, embed media, change text font, size, and color, etc. etc. Also, LJ has TONS of communities on every topic imaginable. For example, the LJ community Lion&Lamb is a Twilight fan community where fans post fanfiction updates, fanart, news, polls, questions, discussions, etc. etc. You can create your own community, join communities so you can post there, or watch them so you can get messages when they are updated. You can post individual posts as either public or private, with private being only viewable by your friends. I really really love using LJ, and I KNOW anyone who likes Blogger will love it too. The only setback I have found using LJ is it is very HTML based, so it helps to know just a tiny bit of basic HTML, for example a / means the end of something. If you run into problems with the HTML, it’s very easy to find help on what to do and how to fix it. I might even be able to help a little bit too.

Go check it out! MY LJ is : http://butterfli4life.livejournal.com. I have both private and public posts. I’ve posted fanart on there before a while ago, and I plan on doing it again. Those posts will be public.

P.S. And yes, I am very aware that this sounds like an ad or a commercial. Sorry about that!

Song of the Week

Hey! I’m here with the new Song of the Week(s)!!!!And yes, there is going to be two. This week I found a whole bunch of new, amazing music, and I couldn’t narrow it down to one song. So, the two songs are “Say (All I Need)” by One Republic, and “I Love Rock and Roll” by Joan Jett and the Blackhearts. I first heard ‘Say’ in a Twilight music video, and it was just such an amazing song. The lyrics are iffy as a parallel to Twilight, but I LOVE the sound of it, if that makes any sense. As for “I Love Rock N Roll”, I’m going through a Joan Jett phase right now. And no, of course that doesn’t have ANYTHING to do with the fact that KStew’s going to playing her *wink wink*. Some other amazing songs that I ‘found’ this week and that I strongly recommend for you guys to check out are: “Lullaby” by the Spill Canvas, a very sweet, romantic, soft, and lilting . . . . well, lullaby; “What About Now” by Chris Daughtry; “Shakin’” by Rooney, just a cool song; “Breathe” by Angels & Airwaves, a song that is really Twilight-y and reminds me of when I very first read the book, it just has that sound, and it touches me; and “Jai Ho” by the Pussycat Dolls. I have to give a shout out here to Megan for introducing me to the song “Jai Ho”, because it is such a freaking awesome song. It’s Bollywood and dance-y and cool. I love it. Oh, and BTW, “Jai Ho” won the Oscar for Best Song. Just a little fun fact.

~Kristen

Lyrics:

"Say (All I Need)"

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Better than you had it
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Yeah, better than you had it (Better than you had it)

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it

“I Love Rock N Roll” by Joan Jett and the Black Hearts

I saw him dancin' there by the record machine
I knew he must a been about seventeen
The beat was goin' strong
Playin' my favorite song
An' I could tell it wouldn't be long
Till he was with me, yeah me, singin'

I love rock n' roll
So put another dime in the jukebox, baby
I love rock n' roll
So come an' take your time an' dance with me

He smiled so I got up and' asked for his name
That don't matter, he said,
'Cause it's all the same

Said can I take you home where we can be alone

An' next we were movin' on
He was with me, yeah me

Next we were movin' on
He was with me, yeah me, singin'

I love rock n' roll
So put another dime in the jukebox, baby
I love rock n' roll
So come an' take your time an' dance with me

Said can I take you home where we can be alone

An we'll be movin' on
An' singin' that same old song
Yeah with me, singin'

I love rock n' roll
So put another dime in the jukebox, baby
I love rock n' roll
So come an' take your time an' dance with me

Song of the Week: Not Meant to Be

Wow! I’m actually on top of this!

So, this past week, there wasn’t really a song that popped out and hit me, but there was one new song I heard that was really really good, called “Not Meant to Be” by Theory of a Deadman. First of all, weird band name. Srsly, where do these names come from? So, I heard the song on the radio and liked it so much I downloaded it. It just had that *zing* that a good song has, y’know? The lyrics are at the bottom.

Also, there are two songs that are not new in my iTunes library, but which I shamefully had never listened to for some reason: “You are Mine” by Mute Math and “Everything” by Lifehouse. I have quite a few songs that, like these, are waiting for me to discover them. This is because I have a lot of songs that I downloaded in fanmixes and that type of thing, and unless I listen to the playlist right then and there, I forget to go back and check it out. The only reason I gave “You are Mine” a second glance is because it’s by Mute Math, and they have a song on the Twilight soundtrack, “Spotlight”. It plays when Edward and Bella get out of the Volvo and go into school as a couple for the first time. Yep, that’s when Edward has his omgsofreakingawesomeiwan’tsome sunglasses on. And he says the Hell quote. I would say it’s one of my favorite parts, but I say that about every part. Seriously, though, how can every part not be your favorite? I digress. “Everything” is supposedly the Smallville theme, or that’s what iTunes tells me. I, however, have never watched Smallville, and have no immediate plans to do so. Anyways, the song is just nice and smooth and lulling and somewhat calming. It’s not really a sing-a-long, but who cares? And in no way does it compare to the song of the same name by Michael Bublé. Nothing can compare to Michael B. Y’can’t touch this. And yes, I just quoted MC Hammer. Get over it.

Toodles!

“Not Meant to Be” by Theory of a Deadman

Lyrics courtesy of LyricsMode

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you
Wanted from me, and knowing
If I give that to ya
I might just disappear.

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

Oh, it's like

One step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind,

Oh, it's like

Trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe that's there's
No way out for you and me
And it seems to be,
The story of our life

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind, oh

It's like trying to turn around on a
One way street. I can't give
You what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
That maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
Should we be building this up
Instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late.

It's like one step forward
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad
And I, can't change your mind, oh

It's like tryin to turn around
On a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I,
I finally see,
Baby we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward,
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad,
And I, Baby I'm sorry to see,
Maybe we're not meant to be

Exciting News!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.seattlepi.com/tvguide/404522_tvgif1.html

I think he'll [Wiliam Petersen] do a few [more episodes] as he said he would. I think if they can craft some special stories for him... I think Jorja [Fox] will as well.

OMG This is very very very very very very very very good news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Here comes a geek!baby, I can feel it! Please, God, let it be soon!!!!!!!!!!!

~Kristen
(http://butterfli4life.livejournal.com/5357.html)

I Kiss a Wolf

I am NOT a huge Jacob fan. He's cool, and I wouldn't mind one of my own, but I'm Team Edward ALL THE WAY.

However, I found this video:



on Youtube, and it is SOOOOO FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here are the lyrics:

This was always the way I planned

Yep, my intentions

Jake looked so brave, bold, hot man

Lost a little discretion

It’s not what I’m used to

Fire instead of ice,

I got a crush, all on you,

Ever since New Moon!

I kissed a wolf and I liked it!

Taste of his heated wolf lips,

I kissed a wolf, just to try it

I hope my Edward don’t mind it,

It felt so wrong, it felt so right

So much better than Edward in Twilight

I kissed a wolf and I liked it

I liked it!

No, unlike Edward, I like your smell

Hot, earth matter

You’re great compared to Mike Newton

He’s just got human nature

It’s not what good girls do,

Not when they are engaged!

Oh, I just can’t choose,

‘Cause this is Eclipse!

I kissed a wolf and I liked it!

Taste of his heated wolf lips,

I kissed a wolf, just to try it

I hope my Edward don’t mind it,

It felt so wrong, it felt so right

So much better than Edward in Twilight,

I kissed a wolf and I liked it

I liked it!

Those wolves, they’re great, all of the Pack

Hot skin, ripped bod, best from the back!

Paul, Quil, Embry, and Jacob Black

Too good to deny it

Ain’t not big deal, Edward ain’t here!

I kissed a wolf and I liked it!

Taste of his heated wolf lips,

I kissed a wolf, just to try it

I hope my Edward don’t mind it,

It felt so wrong, if felt so right

So much better than Edward in Twilight,

I kissed a wolf and I liked it

I liked it!

I swear, this is going to be my anthem.

Song of the Week

The new song-of-the-week is "Supermassive Black Hole" by Muse,because I'm in a Twilight mood (when am I not?). Muse is pretty cool if you're into instrumental off-beat music. "Sing for Absolution" is my favorite on of theirs. Anyways, Supermassive is the song that plays during the baseball scene in the Twilight movie = bonus points!

P.S. Muse is one of Stephenie's 'inspiration' bands.

P.P.S. Hannah, this is the song that I couldn't remember. Told you I would figure it out!!!!

Lyrics:

Oh baby dont you know I suffer?
Oh baby can you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretenses
How long before you let me go?

You set my soul alight
You set my soul alight
(You set my soul alight)

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the 'supermassive'

I thought I was a fool for no-one
Oh baby I'm a fool for you
You're the queen of the superficial
And how long before you tell the truth

You set my soul alight
You set my soul alight
(You set my soul alight)

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the 'supermassive'

Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(You set my soul alight)

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole

LOVE

That's it.

It's done.

I have found my soul mate.

TAYLOR LAUTNER PLAYS ROCK BAND.

Yes.

I know.

I'm insane.

But you know you love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~KC

Song of the Week

Okaaaaaayyyyyyyy, it's has been a REALLY REALLY long time since I've done song of the week on here, but I'm starting again now.This week's song, starting last Sunday, is "Don't Forget" by Demi Levato. It's a really pretty, sad song, and we all know I love sad songs.

BTW, I hate that I LOVE Demi Levato's music. It's so teeny-bopper cliche crap. Bleh. Whatevs.

Lyrics:

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we
Have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget please don't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us

Check it out!

~Kristen

Songs of the Week

Okay, so I haven't been online hardly at all lately, so I'm behind a week on the Song of the Week. And since I probably won't have time to do the new one Sunday, I'm just going to do it now.

Last week's song was "Run" by Snow Patrol. I could blab on and on about how much I love Snow Patrol, but I will spare you and refrain.

Instead of posting the lyrics, here is an amazing music video to the song that I love and have savd on my hard drive:




Next week's song will be "You're Not Sorry, The CSI Mix" by Taylor Swift, in honor of the CSI episode tonight. I am so excited that two of my favorite things are being combined. I am SOOOOOO jealous of her.

The promo for the episode is here:


BTW, "You're Not Sorry, the CSI Mix" is the song playing in the background, and Nick is the one who's always on the cases.

And lyrics are here:

All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around
I’ve been giving out chances everytime and all you do is let me down
And its taking me this long but baby I figured you out
And you think it will be fine again but not this time around

You don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no more, no more, no

Lookin’ so innocent
I might believe you if I didn’t know
Could’a loved you all my life
If you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I’m tired of being last to know
And now you’re asking me to listen
Cuz its worked each time before

But you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last strawDon’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I don’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no no no noo
You’re not sorry no no no noo

You had me calling for you honey
And it never would’ve gone away no
You use to shine so bright
But I watched our love it fade

So you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There’s nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before

Love you all!!! Enjoy!!!!

~Kristen

New Song of the Week

New Song-of-the-Week is "Connect the Dots" by The Spill Canvas. I believe I downloaded this in a Twilight fanmix from Edward's perspective, and if so it fits very well. It's great by itself, though. Just a sweet, romantic, holding-hands-on-the-beach sort of song. I LOVE it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lyrics:

If your feet hurt from walking too much,
then I will tend to them, with a velvet touch.
If your lungs just don't want to work today,
then I'll perform a mouth to mouth until you're okay.

Don't you just love the feeling of my fingertips,
circling your lips.
Don't you just love the desire taking hold of you,
I can tell you do.
I know all your favorite spots,
and tonight we will connect the dots.

If your muscles are wound up and tight,
then I will loosen up the knots until it feels right.
If your ears just ache from listening,
then I'll supply the remedy in the melodies I sing.

Don't you just love the feeling of my fingertips,
circling your lips.
Don't you just love the desire taking hold of you,
well I can tell you do.
I know all your favorite spots,
and tonight we will connect the dots.

Don't you just love the feeling of my fingertips,
circling your lips.
Don't you just love the desire taking hold of you,
well I can tell you do.
I know all your favorite spots,
and tonight we will connect the dots.

Dedicated to Hannah, because she knows why.

Traci

I don't know how I found her, but there is this girl on YouTube and her name is Traci J. Hines. She mostly does Disney song covers, but there are some other songs in there as well. I think she impersonates (not sure if that is the right word) Disney Princesses for a living. She is very pretty and has a LOVELY voice. I always enjoy watching her videos. Her latest video that she posted is a cover of the song "Legacy" by Nicole Nordeman. Even if you don't watch it, read the long description. It is so refreshing and wonderful to find someone who has their priorities straight. Here is the link to the video.

Good job, Traci!!!!!!!!!

Dreamings . . .

So, I've been hearing about 'dream pairings' at different places online, like the 'Dream Team' for Twilight before Rob and Kris was Gaspard Uliel (sp?) and Emily Browning.

I got to thinking what my dream pairing would be, dream pairing meaning the best possible pairing of an actor and an actress. I don't really have roles in mind for them, but I think if Zac Efron and Kristen Stewart were paired together, it could be amazing. Zac has the possibility for mind-blowing chemistry, and so does Kristen, and if the two of them had chemistry TOGETHER it would SPECTACULAR. So yeah, that's my dream pairing.

Zac Efron <3 Kristen Stewart

Ta-da!!!!And it's really wierd because I saw today (online) that Kristen would not be presenting with Robert at the Oscars, but she might be presenting with Zac. I did NOT steal the idea. And no, this has nothing to do with the fact that I have an amazingly huge crush on Zac and Kristen has the same name as I do. Nothing at all. Really. : P

~Kristen

I Feel Like Crap

Lately I’ve been getting a lot of migraines. A LOT. And I don’t know why.

(My mom thinks it’s because I haven’t been on a regular sleeping schedule, which is true. I get up at 5 AM, got to bed in between 9:15 and 10:45, and I often take a couple of catnaps during the day.)

The last couple of days I’ve been trying to be asleep by 9:30 and not take any naps. But the past three days I’ve done that, I’ve gotten migraines all three days. The past two days weren’t too bad, it was more like a headache lurking in the shadows waiting for me to take a wrong step so it could take hold.

But they’re getting really, really annoying . . . like I-get-majorly-pissed-off annoying. Yes, THAT annoying. The one I had Monday was horrible. I took 2 Motrin, and they barely helped. I just had to deal with it. Add to that the fact that I had a lot of school to get done, had been sitting in the car for 2 hours, one of the keys on my laptop popped off and I spent an hour getting it back on, the sun was glaring in my eyes, it was cold outside but hot in the car, and I couldn’t find anything on my iPod to listen to . . . well, that equals me wanting to lay down on my bed and bawl like a baby for no particular reason. I talked to Megan about it, and she suggested ice cream (or frozen Oreos), Pride & Prejudice (or other cry-worthy movie), and THEN I could cry. It was fantastic advice. But, like I said, I was behind on school, so that didn’t happen. It sucked. Majorly. I listened to The Fray (my emo music) all night.

It certainly did NOT help my emotional state in the least, which has been precariously balancing on the knife edge of crying myself to sleep every night.

And do you want to know the really wierd part? Grissom gets migraines. Yeah. Freaky. My favorite character of all time has a health condition and I get it too. Which is just like Hannah having psoriasis and then it turns out I might have it as well. It's freaking me out. In fact, it's kind of like that movie Bedtime Stories, which I haven't seen, where the kids say things in the story and it happens in real life. Well, not that much, but kind of.

So yeah, I’m surely ya’ll wanted to hear about that. But I got it out, so I feel better. And tired. I think I’ll go to sleep now.

G’night.

GSR Video

This video is so pretty, and perfect for the song.



Enjoy, I sure did!

New Song of the Week

In honor of the wonderful Ms. Hannah and her Top-Purple-winning dance solo at Club Days, the song of the week is "Feelin' Good" by Michael Buble.

Don't get me wrong, I love this song and think it's amazing in it's own right.

Lyrics:

Birds flying high
You know how I feel
Sun in the sky
You know how I feel
Breeze driftin' on by
You know how I feel

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me

And I'm feeling good,
I'm feeling good

Fish in the sea
You know how I feel
River running free
You know how I feel
Blossom on the tree
You know how I feel

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me

And I'm feeling good
Dragonfly out in the sun you know what I mean, don't you know
Butterflies all havin' fun you know what I mean
Sleep in peace when the day is done
And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me, for me

Stars when you shine
You know how I feel
Scent of the pine
You know how I feel
Oh freedom is mine
And I know how I feel

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me

And I'm feeling good

I'm feeling good
I feel so good

Taylor Swift CSI Episode!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is a very short preview for the episode that Taylor Swift is going to be in, but they usually don't come out this early. All the different girls are actually the one character who goes through life changes and is played by Taylor Swift. I think it's awesome we're going to get to see her alive, not just laying on the ground and in flashbacks. And it's so sweet that Nick's going to get close to her!!!!

Enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MxG7bzfliU0

P.S. Episode airs March 5 at 8 p.m. on CBS.

Here's the link for Thursday's new CSI episode:

http://sspeedlecsi.blogspot.com/2009/02/csi-deep-fried-and-minty-fresh-preview.html

I usually don't post them here, but this one made me laugh (about/during the show) for the first time since Grissom left. I'll be watching Thursday.

New Song of the Week . . .

is "Running Up That Hill" by Placebo. I first heard it on a CSI episode, then I looked it up, downloaded it, and have since become obsessed with it. It's an amazing song, and you can see the clip where it was featured in CSI here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RKWfu_YuNc8

I recommend watching it, if only for the reason that it's one of my fav scenes ever. : )

This song certainly ranks in my top 25 favorites of all time.

Lyrics:

It doesn't hurt me.
Do you want to feel how it feels?
Do you want to know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
Do you want to hear about the deal that I'm making?
You,
It's you and me.

And if I only could, I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
Say, If I only could, oh...

You don't want to hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware, I'm tearing you asunder.
Ooh, There is thunder in our hearts.
Is there so much hate for the ones who love?
Tell me we both matter don't we?
You,
It's you and me,
It's you and me who won't be unhappy.

And if I only could, I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
Say, If I only could, oh...
You, It's you and me,
It's you and me who won't be unhappy.

Come on baby, come on darling
Let me steal this moment from you now
Oh come on angel, come on come on darlin'
Let's exchange the experience oh...

And if I only could, I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
With no problems...

Say if I only could, I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
With no problems...

Say if I only could,
I'd make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill, With no problems...

Say, If I only could...
Oh...Be running up that hill,
With no problems...

If only I could,
Be running up that hill...

My online Chemistry class takes place in a kind of ‘meeting room’, which is only open during a certain time, i.e. class time. Thus, from 1:10 to 2:50 every Thursday the room is open. The teacher only logs in about 1: 15 and class usually ends around 2: 40. The teacher can log out when class is over, but the room is still open until the time block is over. Occasionally, students will stay late (after the teacher) to chat and everything while the meeting room is still open. Last week, there were only three people who stayed late: myself, Candice, and Josh. This past Thursday, the three of us were the ones who stayed late again. Our conversation went roughly like this:

Me = M
Candice = C
Josh = J

J: It’s us three again!

C: We should start a club or something.

M: Yeah, we should! What would we call ourselves?

J: The Last Three

M (at the same time): The Stay-Laters

C: The Gangsta Krill *(this is me. The gangsta krill thing is a Chemistry class inside joke which I will explain later)* Stay Laters Last Three!!!

M: Wow. That sounds intimidating. We could just say our name and all would fall at our feet! We could take over the world!

J: Not really.

C: We totally could!

/A little later/ *(Me again. When the teacher isn’t logged in, generic classical music plays in the background. There are never any vocals.)*

C: There’s a guy singing. That’s weird. There’s never any singing.

J: Yeah

M: That’s really weird.

C: It sounds like Josh Groban.

M: Yeah. This should be our theme song!

C: We just say our name, sing our Josh Groban song, and all fall at our feet!

M: Yo! It’s the Gangsta-Krill-Last-Three-Stay-Laters! Be afraid! Be very afraid!

J: Wow.

Hope you enjoyed this little clip of the hilarity of my Chemistry class and fellow students. Join me again next week for my new episode: “The Gangsta Krill”. This is Kristen, signing off. *ggrssscrklgrs*

A Letter from God to Women

When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils. But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man because your nostrils are too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you. Man was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with the creativity.From one bone, I fashioned you. I chose the bone that protects man's life. I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him, as you are meant to do. Around this one bone, I shaped you.... I modeled you. I created you perfectly and beautifully.Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart. Support man as the rib cage supports the body. You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be held close to his side.

You are my perfect angel.....You are my beautiful little girl. You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence and my eyes fill when I see the virtues in your heart.

Your eyes......don't change them.

Your lips - how lovely when they part in prayer.

Your nose, so perfect in form.

Your hands so gentle to touch.

I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep.I've held your heart close to mine.

Of all that lives and breathes, you are most like me. Adam walked with me in the cool of the day, yet he was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me, I fashioned in you; my holiness, my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and support. You are special because you are an extension of me.

Man represents my image, woman my emotions. Together, you represent the totality of God.

So man......treat women well. Love her, respect her, for she is fragile but yet strong at the same time.

~Author unknown

Thanks to Megan for this - I think I'm going to cry. :')

Read this:

http://sspeedlecsi.blogspot.com/2009/02/billy-with-his-star-photos.html

I just want to say a huge 'Congratulations' to Billy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He really deserves this and I'm happy for him.

New Song of the Week

Ta-da! I have a new song of week for you guys!!! It is: “Watch the Wind Blow By” by Tim McGraw. The lyrics are good, but the song/tune itself is even better. I have loved this song for a long, long time.


Creek goes rippling by
I’ve been barefooting all day with my baby
Brown leaves have started falling
Leading the way

I like it best just like this
Doing nothing all the way
So let’s lay down in the tall grass
Dreaming away

And all I wanna do is let it be and be with you
And watch the wind blow by
All I wanna see is you and me go on forever
Like the clear blue sky
Slowly
There’s only
You and I
And all I wanna do is watch the wind blow by

Girl, you know you told me not so long ago
To let it go, then let it pass
And all your troubles and your sorrows
They won’t last

So let me kiss ya now, little darlin’
Beneath this autumn moon
Cold winds and other seasons
Will be here soon

And all I wanna do is let it be and be with you
And watch the wind blow by
All I wanna see is you and me go on forever
Like the clear blue sky
Slowly
There’s only
You and I
And all I wanna do is watch the wind blow by

All I wanna do is watch the wind blow by
All I wanna do is watch the wind blow by

~Kristen

Livejournal

Well, I've stuck my neck out there and made my first real LiveJournal post with an LJ cut and everything.

Basically, what I'm going to do is take all the icons, banners, headers, wallpapers, etc. that I have saved on my computer and put them on there so that you guys can look at them and pick out which ones you like. The post has more info.

This batch includes Taylor Swift icons and a banner.

The link for the post is here:

http://butterfli4life.livejournal.com/1190.html#cutid1

Or the link for my journal:

http://butterfli4life.livejournal.com/

Drop a note and let me know what you think!!!! Pretty please?

Kristen : ) <3

New Song of the Week

The new song of the week is "Leave Out All the Rest" by Linkin Park. I really couldn't help myself. It is SO amazing, and it's a Twilight song AS WELL AS a CSI song (it's on the Twilight soundtrack, and it was featured in a CSI episode), so that just seals the deal. I really hope that if you haven't listened to it, you'll check it out and love it too!

Lyrics:

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
'Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here?
So, if you're asking me, I want you to know . . .

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
Of taking my beating
I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So, if you're asking me, I want you to know . . .

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Some one else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside you've learned to hid so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

CSI - Grissom's Departure - A Happy GSR End - My Take

Okay, so if you aren't a CSI addict (like me) and didn't watch "One to Go" Thursday (like I did), then I just have to fill you in.


And don't run because you don't watch CSI or don't know what it's about, because I'm going to tell you all you need to know. This is just me ranting. So please, stay?


First of all, it had been advertised that it was Grissom's last episode. Everyone (well, the avid CSI fans) had known this was coming since last summer, and maybe even before that. We just weren't sure when. It was set to premiere last May, but got pushed back because of the writer's strike and the short season, etc. So, no, it didn't blindside me.


However, being able to look forward to something doesn't make the pain less. In fact, it can make it worse.


So, a couple of weeks ago, the episode BEFORE this one aired, and I/we got treated to all the team's WTF?! faces when Grissom announced he was leaving. Catherine claimed she knew has was leaving before he knew it, and I can believe that she did. Greg gave this heart-wrenching speech about how he (Grissom) had changed his life, and Nick got one of the most heartfelt one-liners Grissom has ever said: "You were the best student I ever had".



So yeah, that was emotional.



Add into the mix that in November 2007, Grissom's one true love, Sara, left Las Vegas because she couldn't emotionally deal with the death/stress anymore. (By the way, we had been waiting for the Grissom Sara relationship, henceforth known as 'GSR', which translates as 'Grissom Sara Romance' since Season 1, Episode 2. It took them until Season 6, Episode 26, to get together. That is 6 freaking seasons of flirting and sexual tension and heartache and meltdowns . . . need I go on? Then we FINALLY get some very romantic, sweet moments that proved to us that GSR really was the only true OTP the universe has ever seen). Anyways, the love of his life walks out the door after a VERY nice kiss (the first we'd seen) and leaves him with a 'Dear John' letter. On a side note, at this point they were engaged.



So she's gone.



The world has ended.



And what does Grissom, the emotionally stunted (I love this man, but truly, when it comes to people, he is the BIGGEST idiot) entomologist, do? Go and get her, I hear you say? No.



He.



Doesn't.



Go.



So, it's a year later, one of their bestest friends ever dies in a gang-related shooting, and Sara comes back for the investigation and the funeral. And we have this very romantic scene of them on the bed and her head on his shoulder and their hands clasped, etc. etc. See here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5cInYeNEKE0

(cue squees)



She's back. But she doesn't stay, because she gets involved in a case that was important to her years ago, and she gets hurt. So she goes. But not before Grissom the Emotional Idiot gives her this little talk about how sometimes the girl needs to leave the guy. And when she asks whether they're talking about the case or themselves, he doesn't say anything.



Nothing.



Just leaves her to make her own conclusions. So she leaves again, and this time she doesn't tell him where she's going.



A couple of months later, he gets this video over e-mail:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zfjesrld3dc&feature=related

HEART-WRENCHING, I KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Sara didn't fool me with her little "I'm happy" for a dadburned minute. She had been infatuated with Grissom for YEARS. There was NO WAY she was over him, just like that. It was sort of a last chance for Grissom to clean his act up.



Well, we don't find out his decision until 1 minute left in the episode where he's leaving.



But before that, and to get back to "One to Go", Grissom's walking down the hall, seeing everyone going about their own respective jobs - seeing them for the last time. I'm bawling by this time (the gorgeous piano/violin ensemble isn't helping). On top of this, for reasons I won't get into, I don't really trust the CSI writers. They've screwed with me/us too many times. So I sincerely believed there was a chance Grissom was just going to walk out of the lab and that would be the end of it. Here's the clip:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgttpl_OzRU

(Just LISTEN to that music. It is seriously the most beautiful music I've ever heard.)



But then, joy of joys, we see him in the jungle is his stupid Panama hat (that hat has a long history) with his GPS and his backpack. He sees a bug (remember, this is Grissom-the-bug-obsessed) and he GLANCES at it. I'm not kidding! HE JUST WALKS RIGHT BY A BUG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That was a clue, then, that something pretty freaking important was going on.



And then he stops.



The camera pans around.



And Sara's there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)



GSR fans erupt cheering from their couches everywhere!!!!!!



No words are needed.



She can't believe he's there.



He can't believe it either.



He reaches for her.



They're in each other's arms.



They're kissing.


And the credits roll.



I die happy.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=thj_-ZH30Rk&feature=related


P.S. If you watch the videos it helps. A lot.

P.P.S. I watched that last scene about 7 times in a row the first time I found it on YouTube, then I downloaded it and continue to watch it at least once a day. I still just can't believe it actually happened.

~Kristen

New Song of the Week

The new song-of-the-week is "Lion" by Rebecca St. James. This is THE Twilight song. Period. Every line, every phrase, every word has EDWARD written all over it. I can't believe that this song was written without him in mind. And the line "But the lion is an angel" could come straight out of the book. I'm dumbfounded that this song exists. Treat yourself to the lyrics:

Lion by Rebecca St. James

Mysterious, that’s what I call you
I’m curious about you
I’m scared and not sure that you are safe
But your eyes seem to say that you are good

This is not a dream that I’m living
This is just a world of your own
You took me from all that I knew
Shown me how it feels to hope

With you with me, facing tomorrow together
I can learn to fly
Feels like I’m living in a lion’s mouth
But the lion is an angel

Wise eyes, you see the core of me
Your gentleness melts me
And now I know that words cannot describe
The power that I feel when I’m with you

This is not a dream that I’m living
This is just a world of your own
You took me from all that I knew
Shown me how it feels to hope

With you with me, facing tomorrow together
I can learn to fly
Feels like I’m living in a lion’s mouth
But the lion is

Peace and power, love forever
Who am I to stand before you?
I am speechless, but in my weakness
You are here and all is well

You took me from all that I knew
Shown me how it feels to hope

With you with me, facing tomorrow together
I can learn to fly
Feels like I’m living in a lion’s mouth
But the lion is an angel

This is not a dream that I’m living
This is just a world of your own
You took me from all that I knew
Shown me how it feels to hope

With you with me, facing tomorrow together
I can learn to fly
Feels like I’m living in a lion’s mouth
But the lion is an angel
Is an angel

Taylor Swift on CSI

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My life is complete (except for the whole cross-between-Edward-and-Zac thing)!!!

Taylor Swift -- 'CSI' Star?! - http://extratv.warnerbros.com/2009/01/taylor_swift_--_csi_star.php
Posted by ExtraTV Staff on January 13, 2009 5:42 AM
County cutie Taylor Swift has conquered the music charts -- now she's trying out the TV world.
The 19-year-old will appear in an upcoming episode of the CBS hit "CSI: Crime Scene Investigation."
In a press release, CBS stated, "Swift will play Haley Jones, a teenage girl whose family runs a seedy Vegas motel. Over the course of a year, Haley goes through a series of changes that have tragic consequences."
"CSI" executive producer Carol Mendelsohn tells Us Weekly, "Before Christmas, we reached out to Taylor Swift because one of the CBS executives had told me, 'Taylor loves your show.' So Taylor came in to meet with me right before the holidays and we talked about the character."
Taylor's role is not the sweet teen America has become accustomed to. Mendelsohn told the star, "I said, 'it's a very edgy part, this may not be what you want. But she said, 'I love it, and I want to do it.'"
Don't expect Swift to be flaunting her long blonde culrs. "This young girl will change physically, will change her hair," Mendelsohn said. "I mean, clearly, your outward manifestation reflects the turmoil that's inside of you, and so it's really a very challenging role."
The episode is slated to air in late February or early March.

New Quote of the Week

The new quote of the week is from "The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian".


Peter: "That's the problem with girls; they can't carry a map in their heads."

Lucy: "That's because our heads have something in them."

Song of the Week

The new song of the week is: I'M JEALOUS by Shania Twain

If I were the moon
I could catch your eye-
I'm jealous of the moon
If I were the wind
I would make you fly-
I'm jealous of the wind

I wish I were the sun
Shining on your face-
Caressing like a lover
I would wrap you up in a warm embrace
We'd be holdin' one another
I'm jealous of the sun
Oh, I'm jealous of the sun

Oh, I don't wanna share you with nothing else
I gotta have you to myself
Oh, I can't help it-I'm so in love
I just can't get you close enough, no

When the sun's on your skin
I can't hold it in
And I know it's a sin-
but I'm jealous of the sun

I wish I were the rain
Runnin' down your neck
And drippin from your fingers
Then I could be the drops rollin' off your back
I'd love to let it linger
Oh, I'm jealous of the rain

Oh, I don't wanna share you with no one else
I gotta have you to myself
Oh, I can't help it, I'm so in love
I just can't get you close enough, no

When it rains on your face
I can almost taste your beauty, your grace
I'm jealous of the rain

When the wind's in your hair
The way it blows through the air
Oh, it seems so unfair, yeah

When the moon's in your eyes
You seem to light up the skies, yeah
And I realize-
I'm even jealous of the moon

Going, Going, Not Sold

"The auctioning process is the means of achieving true price discovery."

For starters, that is a load of absolute crap.

To illustrate my point, I will begin by saying that the quote above is the slogan of an online auctioning website (not eBay). So, first of all, its main purpose it to convince people to participate in online auctioning, specifically at their website. It's no more than something used to attract business, which immediately sets off an alarm in my brain and makes me suspicious of the company. Part of this suspicion arises from the fact that I hate when slogans are designed to sound intelligent to the average customer so that said customer automatically thinks "They sound like they know what they're talking about, so I'll try it." It is a direct manipulation of unsuspecting customers.

Second of all, auctions do not as much encourage 'true price discovery' as they do competition. Notice that live auctioneers say things like 'Are you going to let him have it?' and 'He's a little above you, how much more can you give?', etc. They are trying to encourage the person to win the bid in order to 'beat' the opponent, not to pay what they truly want to. Of course, they can't force people to pay more than they like, but as I have noticed with myself, when it becomes a competition you begin to test the boundaries you have set upon yourself, and even those boundaries that have been set upon you by others. Once the bidding for the item has become a competition, the focus is no longer on the price, but on the achievement of you getting the item instead of 'that other guy'.

Haggling is truer means of 'achieving true price discovery'. In haggling, there is no competition, unless you're trying to compete with the seller. The seller has his set price, and the potential buyer either accepts that set price as lower than his own set price, or negotiates until it is lower than his own set price. The buyer knows what he wants to pay and either pays it or doesn't buy the item at all. The buyer may be tempted to spend a little more than he wants, but unless he is desperate he is NOT going to spend much more than that.

So there, that's my rant for the day.

Leave a comment and let me know if it was interesting or stupid or what. It was the first time I have tried something like that, so I'm interested to see what ya'll think.

Quote of the Week

Hey guys!

I've also decided to do a Quote of the Week. Pretty much the same rules from the Song of the Week apply. Book titles will be in italics, song and movie titles in quotes.


This week's Quote of the Week:


“From the first moment I met you, your arrogance and conceit, your selfish disdain for the feelings of others made me realize that you were the last man in the world I could ever be prevailed upon to marry.”

-Elizabeth Bennet, "Pride and Prejudice"


Yes, I am a hopeless romantic and proud of it.

New Song of the Week

The new song of the week is . . . (drumroll please) . . . "Crack the Shutters" by Snow Patrol.

Crack the Shutters by Snow Patrol

You cool your bed
Warm hands down
On the broken radiator
And when you lay them freezing on me
I mumble 'Can you wake me later?'

But I don't really want to stop
And you know it so it doesn't stop there
You run your hands from my neck to my chest

Crack the shutters open wide
I want to bathe you in the light of day
And just watch you as the rays
Tangle up around your face and body

I could sit for hours
Finding ways to be awed each minute
'Cause the daylight seems to want you
Just as much as I want you

It's been minutes, it's been days
It's been all I will remember
Happy lost in your hair
In the cold side of the pillow

Your hills and your valleys
And marked by my intrepid fingers
And in a naked slumber
I dream all this again

Crack the shutters open wide
I want to bathe you in the light of day
And just watch you as the rays
Tangle up around your face and body

I could sit for hours
Finding ways to be awed each minute
'Cause the daylight seems to want you
Just as much as I want you